I'm starting to feel the fatigue that builds over time with radiation. Monday and Tuesday of this week, I was exhausted, even with a nap! Today, however, I feel pretty good. My site area is pretty sore and is darkening - as expected. I will make some adjustments there, but I'm extremely blessed! I've had no burning or blistering - even at the high dose of radiation. Oftentimes, the dosage has to be adjusted because the skin cannot handle it. I am thankful to be so far "above the curve" as my doctor put it a couple of weeks ago. As always, God is good.
My emotions are so weird. Since the beginning, I've felt like someone on the outside, watching from afar. I haven't felt anger or despair, the "why me's" or the devastation; but it seems like I should. Other cancer patients feel this, but so far I still haven't. I'm bothered by this "distant" feeling I'm experiencing. It's like the shock has never worn off. Sometimes, I feel down, but don't know why. It's like an overall gray feeling, nothing in particular, but it passes.
I mentioned my hair growth in an earlier post. Well, I've taken some pictures of my new hair. It is very straight, so I look balder than I really am. *LOL* It's interesting to say the least.
“Fear can keep us up all night long, but faith makes one fine pillow.” - Author Unknown
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1 comments:
You have a beautiful head!
I'm not seeing much gray there, but I think we all see more of our own gray than others do ;)
Don't worry about what you "should" be feeling. You are unique and walk through this in your own way...there is nothing wrong with that. I think it enables you to be the fighter that you are.
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